It's 10:30
All is quiet
Fucking finally.
Today was…. SO MUCH but so very very good.
It was long.
It was loud.
It was overwhelming.
But my girls, as they bounced from wall to wall, family member to family member, radiated with joy.
These were the moments I longed for when wanting so desperately to have a baby.
And they are here. Even Lily. She joined me today as her hawk spirit. I love it so much because it's so her.
And while there were so many roadblocks for today…
My kitchen is cold so I have to modify the rise time for my cinnamon rolls.
The ugly sweater cookie kit didn't come with the cookie cutter….
I ran out of flour for my chicken so it had 2/3 of the amount it called for
I didn't have olive oil.
Half the presents were going to be late
But guess what
My dough rose just fine. They are now resting for the night in the fridge before I bake them.
I hand-cut the cookies myself, and they actually looked half ok, besides…they were ugly Christmas sweater cookies.
I had enough flour. Would more have been better? Yes but like it didn't change the outcome of my friend chicken at all.
I just used butter for everything today… probs why it tastes so good.
And no one gave a shit about presents being late.
And now all the hard shit is tomorrow.
Tomorrow I get to be this meme
And I can't fucking wait.
Do I have to make some food? Ya, sure, but that hard shit is already made. The frosting is a breeze.
“Santa” has come. All the gifts are under the tree and the girls are soundly asleep.
And that means the adults are now passing out.
I'll leave you with a photo of all the effort D and I did to make this a magical Christmas for our girls.
Happy Holidays
Much Love
Taylor Cecelia Brook
Taylor, your post brings me such joy. Yes, I feel the pain of your words, but hope flowed through it all. Living life as fully as you're capable despite what hurts. That's what carries us alongside grief.
"And they are here. Even Lily. She joined me today as her hawk spirit. I love it so much because it's so her."
Love that Lily showed up and soared in the magic of this holiday.
Thank you for sharing and I hope your girls had a beautiful day.
Beautiful :-) Glad you had a lovely Christmas Taylor :-)