Crushed

By the fucking weight

Disclaimer… there are a lot of likes…. Forgive me, you can take the girl out of Cali but not the Cali out of the girl.

Okay.

Have you ever felt so crushed by your own responsibilities, especially your responsibilities as a mother? That they're just some times where it feels so fucking exhausting and so fucking hard just to do things that we're supposed to do? And lately, because I have not been smoking weed I can't even use it to like forget about how exhausted I am and that I'm exhausted not because I'm actually tired but because sometimes being a mom just requires so much.  

Always answering questions, always getting something for someone, somebody always needs you literally all the time. I'm not trying to complain about having my children because I love them, I love them so fucking much, and after everything I've gone through I am so God damn thankful for them. But holy shit sometimes it's really really hard. I wish more moms would talk (openly) about the fact that like sometimes the responsibilities of making meals, packing lunches, getting everybody to school, like there are dads out there that deal with all this, like literally D was one of them for 3 years, and he understands how exhausting it can feel. 

But sometimes you just feel flattened straight up flattened and that is difficult sometimes but I just want more people to talk about it. Like let's talk about the fact that raising children is not sunshine and roses, it's not a walk in the park like there are days where it's fucking hard as shit, and it gets even more difficult if you have a complex child. If your child is medically complex, medically challenged, neurodivergent, or really sick all the time, literally any type of challenge a child has, which most children end up having some kind of challenge in their life that's just fucking life; it's doubly hard.

So I feel you. To the parents out there who are just exhausted, who are just feeling crushed, it's okay to feel this way, the weight will get easier and I love you and I see you.

All My Love

Taylor Cecelia Brook

P.S. When I was a kid I hated my full name…. I now literally use it everywhere because I love it, Thanks mom and dad :)